I Was Tired of Being A Pain Zombie And Counting My Pills At All Times
A back injury from work had me on so many pills: Flexeral, Percocet, and Tramadol. I was in trouble.
My name is Allison and at 35, after almost 20 years of working as a cashier at a warehouse club, my body is wrecked. Too many years of lifting improperly has left three of my vertebrae compressed, along with 2 torn rhomboids that never properly healed.
I was diagnosed with CRPS (chronic regional pain syndrome), sciatica, and neuropathy. I have numbness in all of my extremities.
I started with just Advil to take the edge off, but by the time I was 33 years old, the pain was severe (mentally and physically) and my doctor referred me to a pain clinic. I had to sign a contract that I wouldn’t take any unprescribed drugs or alcohol while I was taking their drugs….the irony.
Fast forward a year and I was on: Percocet, Flexeral, Soma, Ibuprofen, Tramadol, and Lidocaine patches. Every month, I needed to take more and more to kill the pain, but also to reach that euphoric feeling I first experienced.
I started to know what was happening to me…and it was with the help of my family that I realized I was abusing my medication. It honestly disgusted me that I let myself get to that point. That feeling drove me to very painfully and dangerously detox myself. It was the worst 9 days of my life…I wouldn’t do it again without medical supervision.
I was just so tired of being a zombie and counting my pills AT ALL TIMES so that I could count the days to my next refill. I was absent and forgetting everything. It was the lowest point of my life.
Living in a legal area, I believed that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I got my card and I have not touched a prescription since! Cannabis has also helped me get off of anxiety, depression, and high blood pressure meds.
I stick with indicas because sativa increases my anxiety. My “go to” strains are Northern Lights and the various Kush strains. I vape because I am asthmatic, plus consume edibles and use tinctures, oral sprays, and a CBD salve (BEST STUFF IN THE WORLD!) for body aches. In the morning, I start with a tincture and vape pen (live resin) along with the CBD salve. I will continue dosing every 4 to 6 hours (mints, hard candies, and gummies). Before bed, I drink tea with flower in it.
When I first started medicating with cannabis, my doctor and family were VERY against it. A couple of years later, they all accept. Who I was on pills vs cannabis – two totally different people. I am grateful to be where I am today.