When Speaking of Sobriety, Change is a Process, Not an Event - RxLeaf

When Speaking of Sobriety, Change is a Process, Not an Event

One thing that I have learned when speaking of sobriety is that change is a process, not an event. A person does not go to rehab for 28 days and come back to a brand new life. Now that I have attempted this well over a dozen times in my life, I now get it.

I am just over 3 years clean now. When I finally made up my mind about changing my life, I expected the world to come offer me a great life. Right now, I am petitioning the ACLU of PA to represent me in utilizing a new program that Gov. Wolf has begun for non-violent drug offenders to have their records sealed after a period of 7-10 years after their last charge, IF they can prove their crimes are drug related.

The drunk driver hit us in 1990 when I was 19 years old and a Penn State student. My first arrest was not until I was 28, already 6 years into my heroin addiction. My charges are no question drug related.

So here I sit, for over 3 years now. Unemployable due to my limited use of my right arm due to a bad shoulder which was operated on twice this year, AND a felon. No source of income. I study and advocate for cannabis all day long and wait for correspondence.

Mantra: Today I must remember that the universe runs on its own time, not mine

Gary Zubris

Well what can I say? I'm a recovering heroin addict. And every other substance addict. Thanks to a brain trauma brought on by a drunk driver when I was 19. That was 1990. I finally have just over 3 years clean from that whole lifestyle. I was on my way to a very successful life, but fate had a different plan. I needed to spend the next 25 years of my life after that point in pain trying to destroy myself and that memory. But guess what? You can't. From rehabs, to hospitals, to nut wards, to jails, to prison, to sober houses, to halfway houses....from the PA mountains, to the PA city streets, to the suburbs, I've lived it and learned a lot. About the nature people and psychology, and about addiction. This is not stuff you find in a book. Well there is obviously to me, no other reason for me to be alive but to try and help other's not see the places in life I've been to. No normal person should have to witness that stuff. I want to help other people NOT hurt like I did, or many of the people and families affected by overdose deaths. There must be more than one path available. Addiction is not a one-size-fits-all kind of problem. One of the ways I choose to beat addiction is medical cannabis. I will detail my struggles trying to reintegrate. They go on daily even after 3 years clean. I want to be the hope for many who feel hopeless. It CAN be done.

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